Happy Holidays to you all and a HUGE Thanks to everyone that has stood by me during this very difficult and pain filled year!! I am truly blessed to have this venue as a way to express myself while going through so many different changes.
My road to self discovery has been long, arduous and often painful. Finding my true self has helped make the journey worthwhile. There are still questions; many angst-ridden days, sometimes filled with tears. Yet through the Grace (Boy have I have come to a new appreciation of the word Grace) of God, I have survived!
One of the most important lessons I have learned is that sometimes when you are going through hell, you find out just how strong you really are! Trust me, I HAVE been to hell and danced with the devil himself! I have been afraid, I have cried so many tears that my soul wept... But I am STILL standing!
My ex-husband tried to destroy me and it literally knocked me down so hard that it was tough to stand back up. I stand because I had to. I am a survivor, a Child of God and most importantly, I am a Mother. My children are my "Gifts" from God and there was no way I could just lay down and "let this happen". So, I fought back hard! I have literally been in the fight of my life and my children's lives. It still pains me that they had to suffer at all...but children are very resilient.
The tough times have brought us closer and my relationship with them is so beautiful and more loving than ever. The bond is unbreakable and unshakable! I cannot even articulate how I feel when I walk into their classroom for instance, and see them just light up! Yesterday, I attended each of their class holiday parties and when I walked in all I heard was "Mama"! My 7 year old who will not let me kiss him at the bus stop, literally lept into my arms because he was so happy I was there. My heart is filled with a love like no other!
I have let go of all of my anger. It was not easy because so much dirt has been done. I realize though that there is nothing to be gained by even repeating it. That is not to say that there are still not times when I do not cry because I do.
All that matters and what is most important is that I am still here. Stronger because of my hard times. Wiser because of my mistakes. Believe it or not, I am happier because of my sad times and much, much smarter because of my confusion.
I have forgiven and that single act has allowed me to become stronger than I ever imagined.
My heart is now open to receive all of the good God has intended for me. I have closed the door to all of the ugliness of 2010 and I claim 2011 as my year. The Year of Kimberly! Just My Two Cents
About Me
- Just My Two Cents
- Ashburn, VA, United States
- I am a Freelance Writer and Editor working on my first book! LOVE to read, write and meet interesting people. Mother of two of THE most fabulous children who have ever walked the face of this earth! They are my world and my inspiration. I look forward to using this blog as an opportunity to further enhance my writing skills, build my platform while learning and growing as a writer and as a person. This is a way to share my life experiences and thoughts with others. Welcome to my wacky world!! :-D
Great job, Kimberly! I can't imagine what you have been though. I've had my own tough times (though likely not as tough as yours), and relying on God has helped me, too.
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Here's to an awesome 2011, eh? *Clink of glasses*
What are you going to blog about now that you've put all of this behind you?
I needed to read this and wish you the best
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Thank you Tristan! Yes, here's to an awesome 2011! I will keep on inspiring. Life goes on! And, of course, there is the book!! lol
ReplyDeleteJohn, you have been such an awesome friend and supporter! THANK YOU!!