Letting go of the Bitterness

Holding on to bitterness and anger not only leaves a sour taste in your mouth but will also suck the very life out of you!

In an effort to heal, PLEASE ~ Take a deep breath, bite your tongue, be the ADULT and FORGIVE ~ just do not forget!!

Forgiveness is the hardest part but it can be done! As my divorce progresses toward what seems like forever to end, I have had to learn the hard way to bite my tongue ~ trust me, I have several bite marks to prove my point!! lol

At first, I was devastated and hurt by the horrible things the monster I had been married to had done and tried to do to me. I was broken. But once I got my strength back, I became angry AND bitter. However, it came at a cost!! I was turning into someone I did not like and that price was too high for me to pay!

Once things calmed down, I knew that if I was going to move beyond this and be the better person, I HAD to let go of the bitterness! I found that the only way for me to accomplish this was to totally let God step in and take over.

Now, I am in the process of moving on to the bigger and better things that God has planned for me. The road has been long and arduous, but I am almost there...Just My Two Cents...

Short, Sweet and very on point from William Shakespeare

I could not pass up this opportunity to share something so profound especially in today's world. Enjoy! "Love me or hate me, both ways are in my favor. If you Love me, I will always be in your heart. If you Hate me, I will always be in your mind." William Shakespeare ~ Hope you have a fantastic day and thank you for your support! God Bless you all each and everyone! Just My Two Cents....

Will anything ever be alright again?

So sorry everyone. I know I have been absent. Truthfully, I have been down and not felt very inspired or inspiring. Lately, I have been feeling so very vulnerable and it dawned on me that I am in mourning.

I am grieving the loss of broken promises and a life(happily ever after) that I wanted but unfortunately was never meant to be....I have been living unhappily for quite some time. I stayed, like many for the sake of the kids and then, quite unexpectedly, because of the illness and subsequent passing of my beloved Father-on-Law. I did my best to keep my family in tact but I just could not go on trying to please everyone while losing myself in the process. Does that mean that I failed?

I cannot begin to tell you how many nights I spent crying myself to sleep because I was so very unhappy but did not want to disrupt things or disappoint anyone. I was so tired of being tired... I was losing weight at warp speed and was angry a lot of the time. I realized that I needed an outlet because Kimberly was disappearing ~ so I literally created my Blog exactly one week before I filed for divorce--I just needed some way to let my feelings out before I collapsed.

I wanted to turn my pain into something positive (and still do) but I realize that while I was busy trying to wrap each post with a sunny outlook I was STILL very sad, angry and deeply hurting. I sought therapy for both myself and my children to help cope with the drastic changes. It is helping but I still cry...Through my tears, I can't help but wonder will anything EVER be alright again? Just My Two Cents...

Do you know where you stand?

A high school friend of mine recently posted his Love of God on Face Book! I told him how very proud I was of him for taking a stand on such a public venue.

We chatted about it and he told me about some of the tough times he had experienced recently and how God stood with him through it all. I loved his enthusiasm and his zest for life in spite of the recent trials and tribulations he has experienced.

What touched me the most however, was the pride he felt by SHARING his faith with others and the depth of his commitment to God. He just wants to let the world know where he stands (from the perspective of his belief in God)! He is PROUD to be a Child of God!

You know me well enough to know what question is coming ~ Do you know where you stand? Are you proud to be a Child of God?

I know how painful and hard times can be ~ believe me. I have had mean-spirited people call me the "devil" and challenge my belief but I will not let it deter me. During the course of the last several months, I have been through the proverbial ringer ~ but my faith remains stronger than ever!

Like many of you,I have been betrayed, hurt and deeply wounded by people who claimed to love and care (about me). They tried to crush my spirit. Did not work! Some of them even left nasty (anonymous, of course - even though I know who they are) comments on my Blog to try to break me, but NOTHING and NO ONE can separate me from the Love of God!

The extent to which some people will go to hurt you is actually, rather pitiful. I have learned many lessons, like how important it is to remember who you are and build on that instead of letting the naysayers define who you are and who you are to become.

"The fear of the Lord leads to life; then one rests content, untouched by trouble." Proverbs 19:23 God doesn't promise that we will not suffer trouble or bad times. However, he does promise that in the middle of trouble we will experience a sense of peace in the midst of chaos. I have that sense of peace (now) because I have learned to let go of the anger.

Experience has taught me that if you do not learn from the bad times you cannot truly enjoy the good. I want to enjoy the gift of life for it is truly a gift not a right and should NOT be taken for granted. And let's face it, life is way too short to stay angry at people ~ even if they have done you wrong! ;-D

So again I ask, Do you know where you stand? I do. My heart and soul belong to my Lord God. I am not ashamed or fearful to let anyone know it AND I am not here to shove it down anyone's throat. I am speaking from my own personal experiences and from the lessons I have learned.

I do not care what the naysayers have to say about me or what they try to do to me ~ for they have absolutely no power over me. Like my friend, I am a proud to be a child of God. I am one of his Warriors! I will be still when I need to be and I will stand up and fight for what is right when I need to. I will praise Him and shout it from the rooftop! Thank you Dear Lord ~ For I KNOW where I stand! Just my two cents...

Human vs Spiritual Experience

We are not human begins going through a temporary spiritual experience. We are spiritual beings going through a temporary human experience. Remember these things; Life isn't about the past. It is about learning how to take what God gives you and trying to make the best of it because the past matters no more! Lastly, God does not give you the people YOU want, rather He gives you the people you NEED! Just my two cents...

Are you doing what you are called to do?

We all, to some degree, live by our own "code of ethics". I believe that at our core, most of us want to do the right thing and strive to do good.

Remember, God does not ask about our ability, but our availability for He ALREADY knows what we are capable of.

God put us all on earth to accomplish certain things in life before our time here is over ~ are you up to the task or are you just hiding out in your own life? Are you willing to answer His call?

It may not be what you envision for yourself but you must trust Him and His plan. Some of us are called to serve our country (God Bless and protect them all). Some of us are called to minister His word. (Blessed are they who have been chosen). Some are called to heal the sick and some are called to be great leaders. The point is, are YOU ready to receive your calling?

Great Love and Great achievement involve Great RISK and it is during the darkest hour, that the soul is replenished and given strength to continue and endure. Let your heart be your guide ~ What are you called to do? Just my two cents....