Holding on to anger...

Buddah once said that, "Holding onto anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intention of throwing it at someone else; you are the only one getting burned." What a powerful lesson!

Holding onto anger makes you sick, literally. I have spent so much time and energy being angry over what happened to me that I have forgotten about the two beautiful Blessings that are right before my very eyes ~ My Children!

Yes, my ex-husband has done some of the most unthinkable things to me. He has wounded me very deeply. There are times when I STILL weep! But being angry with him has only stunted my growth as a woman, as a mother and as a Child of God.

It took getting physically sick, losing so much weight that I did not even recognize myself, to realize that he is the loser, NOT me. I am Blessed to be able to spend every waking moment with my children. I will watch them grow. I will teach them to be God-Fearing, kind-hearted, loving and generous souls. I will not miss a milestone, he will.

There is no need to begrudge him, in fact I actually feel sorry for him. He has to live with what he has done. It has been a slow process at times but I am healing and moving on. I will not let the pain of what he did keep me down.

For you see, I HAVE been all the way down to the deepest and darkest pit; but you know what? God was standing there right with me. He NEVER let me go. He has shown me the way home, only this time we have taken a better, more scenic route with many lessons learned along the path.

There is a lot to be said about the old adage, "No pain, no gain." It took me to get sick to truly realize all of my gifts. It has been very, very painful at times. I have been uncertain as to how I was going to preserve, but I have!

I cannot and will not sit around constantly wondering "Why me?" Well, why not me?! I have learned so much. Like, life does go on and it is beautiful. All you have to do is take that leap of faith into living IT.

Holding onto anger does nothing but let enemy win. I am no loser. I have finally let go, really let go of my anger toward my ex. I feel so free that at times I actually have to pinch myself. Even when he tries to do harm to me again, he cannot hurt me. I have taken the power away from him!

You know what, it is he who can't even look me in the eye. I can feel his uncomfortableness when he is around, which is not too often these days. He tried to break me and take away the loves of my life. He FAILED miserably! No one will ever be able to break that bond or take that love from me.

I am a warrior Child of God. Anger and bitterness have no place in my heart. I only have room for Love and all the Blessings that come with it!

Yes, I have danced with the devil and just as God promised, I came out the winner. I held steadfast in my Faith and trusted God completely. Even though at times it did get a bit scary alas, I am okay.

Life really is too short to be bitter. My children love me so much. I love them even more and we are TRULY, Happy. Better still, if you are open, Love will come to you again, only it will be so much sweeter. This too I have recently learned.

Are you holding onto anger? If you answer yes, I implore you to ~ LET IT GO! You don't want to get burned do ya? Just My Two Cents...