Will anything ever be alright again?

So sorry everyone. I know I have been absent. Truthfully, I have been down and not felt very inspired or inspiring. Lately, I have been feeling so very vulnerable and it dawned on me that I am in mourning.

I am grieving the loss of broken promises and a life(happily ever after) that I wanted but unfortunately was never meant to be....I have been living unhappily for quite some time. I stayed, like many for the sake of the kids and then, quite unexpectedly, because of the illness and subsequent passing of my beloved Father-on-Law. I did my best to keep my family in tact but I just could not go on trying to please everyone while losing myself in the process. Does that mean that I failed?

I cannot begin to tell you how many nights I spent crying myself to sleep because I was so very unhappy but did not want to disrupt things or disappoint anyone. I was so tired of being tired... I was losing weight at warp speed and was angry a lot of the time. I realized that I needed an outlet because Kimberly was disappearing ~ so I literally created my Blog exactly one week before I filed for divorce--I just needed some way to let my feelings out before I collapsed.

I wanted to turn my pain into something positive (and still do) but I realize that while I was busy trying to wrap each post with a sunny outlook I was STILL very sad, angry and deeply hurting. I sought therapy for both myself and my children to help cope with the drastic changes. It is helping but I still cry...Through my tears, I can't help but wonder will anything EVER be alright again? Just My Two Cents...